I lost someone close.
Emotions come in waves.
It has been a few months.
Crazy how time flies.
Sad how life goes on,
the world goes on.
No one seems to notice.
I'm alone.
Why does this have to happen, to me!?
It's not fair. It sucks. I hate this.
You're stuck.
Only you can get yourself out.
But I don't know how to get out of this.
No one can see the pain.
It's invisible, it's inside.
Until the pain resurfaces, and you can't help but
to make a scene, a reminder to those close that it hurts to lose that someone.

Life isn't fair.
I want redemption, but it's too costly.

In between the waves of emotions,
I am reminded of her in different parts of the day.
Wanting to say to her hey, this is what I did today.
Wanting to share with her the special people I've met.
Wanting to share with her the new experiences I've learned.
So I decided to do that through here.
Marty, I hope you can see me from wherever you are.
Take care of us please.