Dream a dream

I had a dream of you, with A and B around. It was again shock because I knew you were gone, but you suddenly appeared. I felt annoyed, annoyed that I thought you was gone but all along you weren't? I didn't want to see you because this was another one of those tricks. I didn't know it was a dream, but something didn't feel right. We were in some house and you stood there smiling, kinda laughing, like nothing happened. In retrospect, I'm glad you seemed happy in my dream. I wouldn't want it any other way.

Another dream... A and I were in a living room. You felt different, you felt free. We told you how we really felt, how much we missed you, how hard it's been not having you with us, especially for A. I was bawling as I ran up to you and gave you a big hug. You understood and told us it'll be ok. I wish I had more time with you.

Another dream... we were in the airport. I was meeting A and B at a gate, but I had taken a different flight to get to the airport. I ran through the airport. I was meeting A and B, gotta make it. I see you there. How? Everything was normal. Ok. I guess that's ok.

Listening to Carole King's So Far Away

So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
How I wish I could
But you're so far away
One more song about moving along the highway
Can't say much of anything that's new
If I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Traveling around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
I sure hope the road don't come to own me
There's so many dreams I've yet to find
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away



Also TS's Lover and Miley Cyrus' Slide Away, Younger Now

Oh my gosh it's Jazzman!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnKtCGrLRJ4&list=PL1Dh9ABRyXWb8ZiXC1KxoFXOgZNaW3u0-&index=9

Happy belated birthday Marty. I know we would've celebrated your birthday today because it's Sunday. Here were some quotes I found online that I hope and wish for you to see. We miss you very much. I got to visit my boss and helped her with her walker and had a nice walk with her. It reminded me very much of when we walked alongside with you and helped you out when you were willing to haha. I don't think I'll ever get use to this new normal. We're trying our best. Hope you are happy up there.

Memories of Marty

Emails
"Oh geez"
"Sheesh"
Her laugh
Her smile
Her random calls
Pill schedule
Cooking dinner
Doctors she visit
People she became friends with
Emails
Cards
Notes
Loves to read
Audiobooks, CDs
Conversations
Positivity
Can opener
Laundry
Using the restroom
Her walker
Tennis balls
Special shoes
Arthritis
Haircut
NASA hat
brown purse... never got to see her use the new purse
Purple winter coat
Scarf
Mystery novels
Shadow
Mac2
Watching movies
Having dinner together
Walking outside
Front passenger seat: van, Kia, any car
The sound of her blowing her nose
Carrying tissues
Women's diapers
Watching Twister

I lost someone close.
Emotions come in waves.
It has been a few months.
Crazy how time flies.
Sad how life goes on,
the world goes on.
No one seems to notice.
I'm alone.
Why does this have to happen, to me!?
It's not fair. It sucks. I hate this.
You're stuck.
Only you can get yourself out.
But I don't know how to get out of this.
No one can see the pain.
It's invisible, it's inside.
Until the pain resurfaces, and you can't help but
to make a scene, a reminder to those close that it hurts to lose that someone.

Life isn't fair.
I want redemption, but it's too costly.

In between the waves of emotions,
I am reminded of her in different parts of the day.
Wanting to say to her hey, this is what I did today.
Wanting to share with her the special people I've met.
Wanting to share with her the new experiences I've learned.
So I decided to do that through here.
Marty, I hope you can see me from wherever you are.
Take care of us please.

Cool art (using traditional art like pencil, pen, watercolor, etc.)

Culpeo-Fox (Raven S. Fox): http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/gallery/


http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/art/Bloodgold-530781768


http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/art/Thylacine-Stripes-161370572


http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/art/Groom-534275437


http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/art/Camp-Fire-502972907


http://culpeo-fox.deviantart.com/art/Skat-of-Foxes-Overview-144197663

Nummyumy: http://nummyumy.deviantart.com/gallery/


http://nummyumy.deviantart.com/art/Ariel-533259227


http://nummyumy.deviantart.com/art/Selene-528327962


http://nummyumy.deviantart.com/art/Sakura-534108072

Minayuyu: http://minayuyu.deviantart.com/gallery/


http://minayuyu.deviantart.com/art/Baymax-x-Crowd-Lu-520803740


http://minayuyu.deviantart.com/art/oh-Summer-snow-480626664


http://minayuyu.deviantart.com/art/lonely-world-534096313


http://minayuyu.deviantart.com/art/counting-sheep-476454718

Gabriel Picolo: http://picolo-kun.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://picolo-kun.deviantart.com/art/Clearing-531321669

http://picolo-kun.deviantart.com/art/The-Waters-of-March-522132928


http://picolo-kun.deviantart.com/art/Bouquet-533205571

NanoMortis: http://nanomortis.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://nanomortis.deviantart.com/art/Nothing-left-to-Feel-527430750

http://nanomortis.deviantart.com/art/Innervision-498469910

http://nanomortis.deviantart.com/art/Fed-Up-497123332

Random anime drawing

Cool art II (using digital media)

RHADS: http://rhads.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://rhads.deviantart.com/art/THE-MARTIAN-499451104


http://rhads.deviantart.com/art/Commission-Above-The-Clouds-505030920


http://rhads.deviantart.com/art/The-Old-Man-And-The-Sea-505224208


http://rhads.deviantart.com/art/Pierian-spring-358555101

Hannah Alexander: http://hannah-alexander.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://www.deviantart.com/art/Art-Nouveau-Costume-Designs-I-492355581

http://hannah-alexander.deviantart.com/art/Art-Nouveau-Costume-Designs-IV-502988130

http://hannah-alexander.deviantart.com/art/Part-Of-Your-World-491959042

Gasara: http://gasara.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://gasara.deviantart.com/art/SS-naochiko-Love-Letters-420353771

http://gasara.deviantart.com/art/The-Lute-and-the-Horn-332416862

http://gasara.deviantart.com/art/The-Asgard-Plains-254402849